AGAIN... :">

*RACHEL LOVE EMERSON*

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So here I go ....AGAIN...

It's like I've been never hurt before.

Have you ever had a feeling that you attempt to fight so hard just to forget someone?

But every time you do, you just keep on falling so much more?

And there you go. You're gonna get hurt way much more than before.

So here it is....

I know, all of my friends already know the story. It just keep on going. on and on and on and on. We're in a circle. Even if we stop, and start again; decided to go forward, we just keep on going on the same path we took before.

I don't know why I even bother entertaining him even if I've already felt so much pain before. All sacrifices I've done, and all the pride I set aside just for me to be with him.

Okay, I'll stop this non sense endless dramatic emotion....

Let's just go the story I wanted to tell, :">

Know what the story is? :)

Me and HIM broke up again...for the second time, last July 15, 2010 to be exact. Then after our break up, we haven't talk to each other. It's like we don't even know each other anymore. Funny?weird? But all relationship ends up in bitterness. So anyway, even if I was the one who broke up with him, I'm the bitter one. I admit it! SUPER BITTER!!! yeah, but it's because I don't even heard a single word from him when we broke up. No comments. No reaction. No NOTHING!!! And it hurts me a lot. So after a while, he suddenly send me a message. It's like everything is fine between us. So after a month, It's like we became M.U. again. But like the same old path, coldness is always present in what we so called "RELATIONSHIP" even though we're just M.U. again? I think? Then he's gone. AGAIN. Like he always used to. Then I moved on! But still I am bitter at him. Then suddenly .... HE CAME BACK!!! oh dear!

I'm so confused! Every time I'm on the last stage of moving on, he always COMES BACK!!!! I hate that stupid feeling!!

Cause I'm the kind of person who might feel only two emotions once I started speaking to him again.

First is that I'll be angry at him.. >.<

Or I might fall in love with him..AGAIN! >.<

So either ways, I'd rather not to speak to him again. T.T

But life is to playful!

He admit the feelings he felt when I left him. And other feelings that I never thought he might feel for me. :">

Know what I'm talking about? It's really unexpected!

So we started admitting the feelings we have for each others. And starting fixing things up. And also the problems and issues we used to have.

Then, September 3, 2010 , yeah you know it. Our status now is... "In a relationship". :">

AND *SHIT* HE'S SO SWEET!!! C'mon!!! I never thought he would be like that! Of coarse I wish and hope for him to be like that. But damn! It's really unexpected.

And he gave me a super sweet letter. :">

And I read it all the time. :)

Yeah we're still okay. But I'm starting to miss him again. :(

Because of my and his busy schedule, we don't see each other every time. And what I meant by every time, I meant like forever!!!!!! And I so do super miss him.. :(

But we do trust and love one another. :)

And..Let's just hope that this would last. :)

Guess what, I'm starting to get less emotional. :)

Just sayin.:)