Is this love? Why do it have to hurt so much?

Sa bawat pagsubok na dumarating, sa mga problemang ating pinapasan. Mga bagay na patuloy na gumugulo ng ating isipan. Hamon na dulot ng mga pinili nating daan. Anu mang hirap ating kayanin. Wag sumuko , tandaan na ang Diyos ang laging nasa tabi mo.

Naiintindihan ko naman ang sitwasyon ko ngayon. Pero ang hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Sinusubukan kong maging masaya. Ginagawa ko ang lahat makalimot lang sa problema. Pero bakit sa tuwing pumapasok sya sa isip ko, sumasakit ng ganito ang puso ko.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pa ko nasasaktan ng ganito. Hindi naman ito ang unang pagkakataon na umibig ako. Mas minahal at pinahalagahan naman ako ng iba, ngunit bakit pagdating sa kanya nagmumukha akong tanga? Hindi ko alam kung anu ba ako para sa kanya, ngunit para sa akin sya lang talaga.

Mahirap kasi sa bawat araw na lumilipas, damdamin ko’y hindi kumukupas. Hindi ko alam kung meron na ba syang iba o baka naman may bagong sinisinta. Sa bawat minutong kami’y nag-uusap at magkasama, nagugulumihanan ako baka ako’y pampalipas oras lang nya.

Nais ko sanang sabihin na “ang sakit sakit na” ngunit baka naman ito’y isang tabi lang nya. Gusto kong sabihin na “Mahal na mahal pa rin kita” subalit baka baliwalain lang nya. Kung pwede lang sana lagi kaming magkasama at magkausap ngunit baka pag kasama nya ko sya’y naiinip lang.

Mga bagay na gusto kong mangyari, pag dating sa kanya’y di ko na mawari. Pusong mailap at matatag sa iba, lumalambot at nanghihina pagdating sa kanya. Magmahal man ako ng iba, sa dulo’y sya pa rin talaga. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero sobra na talaga ang sakit.

Hindi ko nga alam kung minahal nya talaga ako mula sa puso nya, pero ang alam ko mahal na mahal ko talaga sya. Pilitin ko mang limutin sya’y di ko magawa. Shit anu ba yan ang lakas ng tama ko sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung anung nakita ko sa kanya at di ko sya malimutan ng tuluyan.

Mabait, makulit, masaya kasama, at palabiro. Ayon sya pag sa iba. Ngunit pag ako kasama nya nagiiba sya. Hindi ba tlaga sya masaya pag ako kasama nya? O masyado lang talaga akong sensitibo pagdating sa kanya?

Sa una’y sinulat ko to dahil gusto kong ilabas ang sakit ng nadarama ko. Ngunit habang tumatagal at patapos na ito, unti unting nababago ang tema ng sulat kong ito. Siguro nga sa kabila ng sakit nararamdaman ko ngayon, mas umiiral pa rin ang pagmamahal ko para sa taong iyon.

Alam kong tutol ang karamihan dahil sa kanyang mga kalokohan, pero ewan ko ba kung sadyang tanga ako o lubusan ko lang syang minamahal. Hindi ko man alam kung anu ang patutunguhan nitong kabaliwang to, pero sigurado ako sa isang bagay at un ay ang tunay at tapat na pagmamahal ko sa kanya.

Okay lang kahit ganito na lang kami habang buhay. Okay lang ganito kami mamumuhay. Ayos lang kung manatili kaming ganito sa tagal ng panahon. Basta wag lang syang mawawala dahil di ko na hahayaan yon. Hay... Buhay... Bakit sa dinami rami ng tao sa kanya pa? LOVE ba to? Bakit kelangan sumakit ng ganito?

Child Abuse A transgress that needs to be hampered and to be ceased

"New Research Shows Women Who Suffered Severe Physical Abuse or Forced Sex as Children and Adolescents Are More Likely to Suffer Heart Disease Later in Life and to Put on More Weight. PMS Comfort, an Online Women's Health Resource Dedicated to a Holistic Vision That Includes Body, Mind, and Spirit, Believes This Type of Research is Essential to Recognizing the Emotional Aspects of Women's Health."

This is an example of Child Abuse I've searched on the net. Reading about it makes me feel that i'm so lucky because I do not experience that. I pity those people who experience it. I felt so bad because it is really so hard to think and so scary to see that many people are abusing others especially children that cannot even fight back or defend themselves from people like that. It gives negative feedback to the ones being affected. It cause so much damage to them and to the people who actually cares for them.

Child abuse is the physical, sexual, emotional mistreatment, or neglect of a child. Child abuse occurs at home, at school, actually, it occurs everywhere. It's like there's no safe place to be. What's more frightening is that it's not only done by strangers it is also done by our relatives, friends, and family.

Child abuse is related to the parental guidance of the parents to their children. Some says that it's no big deal. Because they think of it as the right way of disciplining the child. But for me, it's not supposed to be harsh like the one that is being showed in televisions. All of us must be respected and treated equally. Whether you're a male, a female, a child, an adult, black or white, we need respect. We are all humans. Human rights is given to each and everyone of us. We all deserve it. A child has his/her rights to play, to be loved, and to be taken care of.

Victims of child abuse brings a high impact on a child's emotional status, health, ability, and confidence. Emotional status is related on how they easily react to a certain person or object. They might have this what we called phobia. They can also develop a hard time trusting and socializing with other people that leads the child being alone at most of the time. Child abuse has a big role in influencing their self- esteem that contributes in having a high possibility of mental and physical health deprivation. Self- reliance or their ability to do a certain thing may be blocked because of what they have experienced. Another effect of child abuse is that a child may tend to hurt themselves and also the person surrounding them. Child abuse affects ones confidentiality. A child changes his view on him/herself every time he/she is hurt.

As we can see, child abuse doesn't bring any advantages to one person or another. It is not right to do or might even to think about it. This is so wrong especially we know that abusing is tend to hurt a young creature created by our God. Anything that harm a person not only physical but also emotional is considered already a wrong thing to do.

The more you live the more you love

Feelings are hard to fight. The harder you try to ignore the feeling, the harder you fall.

How can we know if loving a person is right or wrong?
Love is never wrong. Loving is never been a crime. Love comes in most unexpected and in a very mysterious way. People says love hurts. But does it? does it really does? Love doesn't hurt us, the people we love are the ones who can hurt us. Love is a feeling that brings us joy in our hearts, smiles to our face, and twinkle in our eyes.

Sometimes, when it comes to loving a person, that person may not be okay to you're friends and you're friends are not okay with the one you love. It easy to for us give an advice and reaction to this topic because we're not it the position. But if you will experience this, for sure you'll have a hard time thinking about and making a decision about this one.

They say that in love, there are no rules about what should or shouldn’t be done in each situation, you decide there and then what the most loving thing to do is. But in situation ethics, it is stated there that the ultimate norm of Christian decision is love: nothing else. So it means that Love is a law. It is a law said by God.

According to the act utilitarianism, you must weigh things in order to know what you must choose. First, you must know what is the worth of your friends are. Friends are always there whenever you feel happy or sad. They will be there even the one you love left you. While your loves ones bring you happiness and pleasure.But if you choose your boyfriend/girlfriend among your friends, and he/she left you, to whom will you go?

In Kant's ethics, it focuses on your obligations. We must think about our obligation to our friends, to the ones we loves, and of course to ourselves. We must avoid not to harm them in any cost. We have to do our duty to bring about what is good for the others(duty of beneficence) while not injuring others(duty of nonmaleficence) according to Ross's ethics.

If you do not try you'll never know what will happen. According to Situationism, "Only the end justify the means: nothing else." If that decision causes harm, it is wrong. If good comes of it, it is right. Sometimes you can’t claim to be right by following a rule knowing it will cause great harm not only to you but also to others. Only the outcome can justify your decision.

Do not be afraid to choose who brings you happiness. Whatever what decision you will make, don't regret it at the end because you know, at some point, it brings you happiness.